only just yesterday I thought my struggle is over because I just finished one of the biggest project for our marketing class this semi-finals. And today, since classes are suspended and done with the project, I slacked off for the whole day, but my dad started to get angry again, I can hear him from downstairs complaining about how we're irresponsible for not watering his vegetable crops (tho its been raining everyday) and how we neglect cleaning the yard (our yard's pretty big and can't be cleaned by one person in one day) and he's mostly rubbing it on my mom. My sister seems unaffected about the scolding because she think its just one of my dad's moments, I did think the same as my sister when she told me about what she thought.
My mom approached me just some hours ago complaining that my dad is still angry after he left and asking me how are gonna solve this property maintenance problem that has been going on for years since we moved to our current home.
I don't want to point fingers at who's fault is what but seems unavoidable to think about it, its usually my dad who makes a problem worse, he points it out because no one else in this family sees its a big problem, my mom is second at pointing out problems too and we, their creations or children, are doing nothing about it. Well at least that's what they see from us, but don't they have any consideration? My brother's working and only comes home at weekend, my sister just hangs around the house because she's unemployed and just uses my laptop all day or hang out somewhere else, and me, I'm studying and I mostly wake up at 9am, go to uni at around lunch time then get home by dinner time. Can my parents not see how we're not able to do the maintaining of our lawn (at least my sister can do it but even she's too lazy to do it alone, specially if no one telling her to) and now my dad left to take care of his mom and will only come back by weekend with anger still unsettled, with my mom left arguing with him in text messaging, and me getting anxious.
I don't think I'll be able to get through a day of this week without thinking about this problem heating up again and my mom being anxious, and lastly my dad feeling angry everyday.
I'M EVEN MORE STRESSED NOW COMPARED TO THE SHITLOAD OF CLASS PROJECTS I HAVE TO FINISH.
I want to cry, I want to talk to someone and cry, physically give me a hug.
I've sticked to my word not to think about how bad the situation is and just think about how to make things work out, but I was only able to do it with problems at uni and I can't think clearly because my mind gets flooded of the thought of my mom being stressed because of my dad's temper and its gonna affect her work.
This a one week nightmare for me.
and right now we haven't eaten dinner yet because my mom is too busy arguing with my dad and even if i try to prepare my own food I won't be able to eat it because I'm too anxious.