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last time I played the game was in January 2014, so I decided to play it today in a bot match, I can't move, it's not lag nor connection, I can click on items, buy items but nothing adds up to my inventory nor my gold being diminished and stuff, I can right click on the ground, but nothing is moving, even the bots aren't moving, even after the timer was up, I couldn't play the game. 

What is happening???
just randomly got curious at this workshop item in Gmod tho I don't play it that much but this is amazing

I would see people say things to me or to what I do that would make me want to say "I came out to have a good time and I’m honestly feeling so attacked right now"

ps. for those who doesn't know much about that quote, it's actually a meme
its just my feel i guess, tagalog kinda has a more harsher, rougher tone in pronunciations and diction of the tagalog words compared to my other spoken language, which is english

I feel like I've expressed my feeling much more deeper and sincere when its tagalog, its like having a "real talk" (when we say real talk between friends, it means you have to admit, confess or open something up that needs to, no hiding) with someone who also understands the language, but of course its because I'm more comfortable with it and I don't have that much effort in thinking of what to say next compared to english

but its better if I'm talking about it personally with someone, they could at least see my body language, facial expressions and hear the tone of my voice

and whenever I make tagalog posts, I translate it in google and just...

pag may narinig o nakita kang di ka nais nais, to be more specific, magpopost ka ng gawa mong pinaghirapan at proud na proud ka, tas biglang may magsasabing ang sama

tas biglang parang babagsak sikmura mo after mabasa o marinig yun

but then you try to compensate of that horrible feeling

iisipin mo lang, "isang tao lang naman un"/"di naman sangkatutak na tao nag sabi eh" and it kinda relieves that horrible feeling

its a common thing at mahirap iwasan so try hard n lang akong mkasurvive sa ganung environment or isipin na may mga taong ganyan talaga, wala rin naman akong mapapala kung aawayin ko

ang kaya ko lang gawin ay mag isip ng mga bagay to make me feel better even though ung "sting" nandun pa


pero di mo ring maiiwasang isipin na tama ung sinabi nila


ps. tuwing magpopost ako ng tagalog, tinatry kong isalin sa english tas tatawanan ko
I'm offended about some things but I'd rather not talk about it with the person who offended me because I don't want to get through the trouble of explaining it to them and risking ending up in an argument nor make the person feel bad

I'm not just used to explaining things that offends me, idk maybe of the family/society/culture I grew up in, It's rare to see  
I've never seen someone (irl) confront someone else about their attitude and problematic behavior, usually it would happen in movies, I would confront some people but only in a subtle, quick or jokingly way, I go all "mataray" towards people when I need to
sometimes I would type a long rant or vent and then when I'm done, I end up not publishing anyway because who cares

this journal, there was supposed to be a rant here but why should I even bother

if I really don't want to let the thing bother me so why bother venting about it
I'ma work on commissions because class projects hasn't gotten tight as I expected, as for now, so I pretty much have some extra time on my hands

edit: tho I'll still have my commission info closed

they are posting unsourced works

I was informed by :iconemzietowers: about this
I need those shades  new pet

my favorite stills and details from the film and some other crap related to the film

 image image

 spy's body language

 medic only needs his eyebrows to seduce

what I love about this part is that after medic threw the jar on the ground,
breaking loose the mutant bread, soldier smiles and wanted to get a hold on it,
or even pet it, we just don't know

the 3 stooges (scout looks like he wanted to go for a kiss)


when someone says my pseudonym and pronounces it as “pee-bun” instead of “pie-bun”

I pose the whole sequence within a few frames then stretch out the timing and turn on the splining


classes starts tomorrow and my mom wanted me to lay off the commissions during this semester although I still have some pending commissions that I have to do but I won't be accepting more unless I need and can manage to

and also and extended version of the wip animation I did last night 

I tend to put a lot of unnecessary movements and exaggeration because its fun. I still have to polish the end part but that's pretty much the length of the whole video.
Maybe I should do a sketch animation first to base my sfm animations from.
I miss 2d animation so much :iconpapcryplz:

a friend of mine has just showed me this workshop submission

and maaaaan, that looks hella familiar

they didn't even ask permission nor added photo credit :/

update: nevermind they took it down
someone who's traced your work

I'm not even sure anymore

I remember messaging people about tracing my work, but I only did that like 2 or 3 times in the past years because usually, its not me who's doing the messaging, and other people are pretty much better at it than me

do I just go for a simple "You traced my art <insert link to art>" or "Hmmm, this looks familiar" with link hyperlinked to the word 'familiar'?

specially if that traced work was a really long time ago and so I consider that the artist might have stopped tracing art by this time
no smear (left)

with smear (right)




my thoughts in almost everything I do that involves talent and skill

even tho I constantly underestimate myself, it convinces me to do better

the poison is the cure